From Time to Time (a sidebar)

From time to time I will insert e-mail message threads with individuals other than EJW. I choose these threads because they reference EJW and they are insightful in that I rationally KNEW the right thing to do at each step of the way. Still, I chose the irrational.

For those of you keeping score:

Terbie = EJW
TRB = EJW

Mentions of EJW have been highlighted in a different color font and italics. Names have been removed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent. The first of these e-mail threads will follow.

"Hump Day's Here Again" Message Thread

Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 10:00 AM
From: LKK (blog Author)
Subject: Hump Day's Here Again

Well? :-)

Thanks again for coming to the game with me last night. I had a blast! I remembered who R. was, but it took me 'til this morning. lol He's a guy I chatted with when I first started Hot or Not in spring. We renewed our e-mailing just recently and have been trying to set up a lunch or something. I gave him my phone number like two weeks ago and I thought he just flaked. I'm getting used to that with Internet boys. lol I haven't returned his call yet -- thought I'd give it a try at lunch. We'll see.

No word from CK or from tongue ring boy (TRB). I sent TRB an e-mail that went something like, "Glad it finally hit you. So tell me about this ironing thing. And do you cook?" Then I told him briefly about the M's game and asked him what sort of trouble he got himself into yesterday. I decided that just ignoring it would be my message telling him that I'm not going there this soon. We'll see if the message is received and responded to. If not, I'll just move on because I don't need that in my life now or ever again.

Today is the start of my Angelina life. ;-)

LKK


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 12:19 PM
From: LS (girlfriend)
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

God that almost sounds like a line for a song ... "my Angelina life" ... :) that's great, darlin. I think it sounds fantastic!! Very proud of you and of course you know I think that woman is nearly perfect anyway so damn skippy I love the new tune too.

First off I had a blast last night too. Didn't pay a whole lot of attention to the game but did "see" a lot of it, and enjoyed it (especially the win) but it was fun as always to spend time chatting with you. We really have to fix that off-season -- I don't want to have it go to next season again with us not ever getting together. I know the season ain't over yet but I'm just sayin. For the record :) I'm chatting with my old ball player now LOL

OH and man I forgot I LOVE the TRB thing -- I've already re-named him Terbie and I'm sure he would just love it, if he were a big ole Golden Retriever or something LOLOL

The ball player is pretty funny, I think I like him more than I think I want to already! He did email me some baseball pics (not too close up, I don't think they'd "do it" for ya) and another of him in clothes this time (haha) and he looks older than 35. He reminds me of that guy on the D-ball team that plays in the outfield I think his name is E. (not my E.) something ??? ... he's kind of tall and a little broody looking. Not in that hot Markie Mark way -- he's a little too old for that look. The jury is still out on what I think of his looks. He says he's got super light blue eyes like mine and that wouldn't be a bad thing, that's for sure.

He wants to get together this weekend and he says we could maybe swim in his hot tub LOL

CHAH I don't think so!!


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 01:09 PM
From: LKK
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

What a cool idea for a song. I think I'm going to write it! :-)

I anticipate some back-sliding on the Angelina transformation, after all, it's hard to change 40 years of behavior in a short time. But I soooooo want to get there.

And YES YES YES, no more disappearing, disconnection in off-season. Events must be arranged. I'm committed to that, and you know how I get when I'm committed. ;-D

I checked out the PSSBL to see when your dude would have his first playoff game, if you wanted to go and support him. It would be 7:30, Sept 10th at Kent Memorial. The Rocky D-Ball have their first game that day, but at 9:00 am at Bannerwood. The Baker boys, if they win their first game on Wed Sept 7th, then they play on the 10th as well, but at 12:30 at Eastside Catholic. So there would not be any conflicts for you to watch him. If you can stand that much baseball in a day... ;-)

That is cool (and so fun) that you're getting to chat with him. I miss chatting while I work. I did so much of that at Bellevue when things were slow.

Now I want to preface this next statement by validating your fear about liking someone too much too soon. I understand your trepidation (yay, I'm getting my words back!!!!). But still, it seems that I heard these words come out of your mouth last night at the game... "I'm coming to believe that I would like to experience one great love, even if it doesn't last forever, just to have been there and known what it felt like..." Now, I know I've probably mish-mashed words about, I'm not good at direct quotes, but that was the message I heard. So, in that vein, I'm saying like him all you want as fast as you want. Enjoy enjoy enjoy. What you are feeling is the tickle of great love. It may not end up to be the real thing. But it's the start of it.

It sounds like you've been your honest self by acting excited with him, and yet still feisty and flirty. He hasn't run away. He might (I hope not!). But even if that happens... Embrace the feeling. The anticipation. The excitement. The nerves. The worry. The anxiety. The beautiful butterflies. It's all part of great love. Remember, the only thing you can truly feel is YOUR own great love. You can't slip inside someone else's skin and mind and heart (dammit, I've tried!). Feel YOUR great love.

You hear what I'm saying? :-)


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 02:34 PM
From: LS
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

That was a very sweet and powerful email :) I think I might have to keep it for posterity! Things to remember ... you're very good at eloquence when you're in Angelina mode :) I think I'm gonna like this new attitude a LOT :)

Thank you for pointing it out to me. He's got a lot of my wish-list qualities, doesn't he ...

That scares me and thrills me at the same time! He's invited me over to his HOUSE tonight to say hello to him and his dog Abby .. and wants me to come for dinner this weekend. He seems very open and I think a lot of that is because we have already identified some commonalities that are important to each other and so there is less BS to cut through. Now is the time I start developing the Mr Perfect expectation ... so I have to try not to do that and keep it real.

Your email was just very touching, Lkk. It really was ... nothing you said was extraordinary and yet, the whole message was. And especially coming from you because I know things have been a bit on the heart-challenging side for you lately, and it was so open and free from your heart what you said ... thank you. That really made me smile big

I love you :)


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 03:10 PM
From: LKK
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

Stop! You're going to make me cry! I am definitely on the verklempt side right now...

I am so glad my message touched you. It was definitely sent from the heart. As you always tell me when you write your own eloquent and insightful messages to me, the message is as much for me as for you. It will be good for me to keep it for posterity.

And it feels pretty cool that there might actually be a little Angelina in me yet. ;-)

Are you going to go? You must be just plain wiggling (not wigging -- well, maybe a little wigging) but true and actual wiggling. It's hard to keep still when something this cool, something that's clicking on way more than the usual cylinders, comes along. If you can, and I know it's hard, keep your eyes open and your dreams quiet. See him for who he is. And at the same time, keep the microscope at home! lol Don't be LOOKING for the warts. LOL! Let yourself really feel what his presence feels like. His energy. Ya know what I mean?

So, are you going to go?

And it doesn't need repeating, but I WANT to repeat it. I love you too. I'm really thankful for this year of getting to know you better and better. You're one of my treasures!


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 04:02 PM
From: LS Subject:
Re: Hump Day's Here Again

I smiled again when I read this again :)

We're so good to each other ...

damn the poor folk who don't have good friends!

It's great to be a treasure.

Yes, I'm going to go !!! LOL

He has a late job that may take later than 6-6:30 so he'll call when he gets back. He said he'd have to clean up Abby (the mutt dog) because she's always such a mess and that made me laugh, silly as it was. I figure if I go over for even just a little visit tonight, at least I will know how I want to feel about continuing this. He already won't be just another guy I met online, just because he's got more of the "real" stuff, and I would so much rather be free to know the deal sooner than later. I have no good patience when I'm dealing with stuff like that! He sounds like something I've wanted but we'll see what 49 is like when I'm there. Plus, he has to like me back ... so who the hell knows what will be. Sometimes I have more expectation from those in a program because I have a niggle that God sent him to me .. which could be true, or not .. so liking someone MORE in advance is just not a good call. Remember that nasty fat guy with no underwear and the shorts that showed up at my house in the Lexus?!?!?!?!? He was in the program LOL ... so you just never know what's gonna happen when you start expecting something ... I should know that well enough don't you think!

LOL


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 04:22 PM
From: LKK
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

Just in case I catch you before you head out...

HAVE A BLAST!!!!!

And I want details tomorrow!

;-)


Sent: Wed 8/31/2005 05:00 PM
From: LS
Subject: Re: Hump Day's Here Again

Man it bites to have played too much today and not gotten the WORK done !!I am hoping to escape in a bit but tomorrow morning will be a rush to get stuff done before my dad gets in to try to close out stuff for August :) oopsies ... boys in the head ... shame shame ..

Thanks for the support and you know dang well I'd tell you anyway without you asking LOL

I hope it's fun tonight, I'm sure it will be that even if there is no spark - but of course you know I'm hoping for one of those too cuz I'm selfish and demanding and hoping !!! :)

We'll see what we see!!

Have a good night!

XOXO

Subject: How did it go?

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 18:12:10

To: E.
From: L.

Hi, E.,

Did the buyers like what they saw? That's really cool that you're a real estate agent. Sounds like you've been doing it part time then? I'll bet it's an exciting time to be in real estate with the last scramble of low interest rates... Do you like working with sellers or buyers better?

My weekend has been pretty slammin' thanks for asking. I was in an all-day softball tournament yesterday for my old employer. They have this one day tournament where the different departments compete against each other. I haven't worked for them for over a year, but the IT department recruited me to play with them. It was a blast, and we made it to the championship game. But lost. Worse than that... I was the final out.

Can you say OUCH! Just call me a choke artist I guess. Doh!

Anyway, now that I've rambled on and on... Yes, I would enjoy seeing more pics of you and I have some to share as well. My address is lkk@com. It usually works best if you write me first -- sometimes my mail gets put in people's spam folders.

Can you believe that? Me, spam?!?! ;-)

Look forward to seeing more of you...

Ciao bello

L.

Subject: Hi

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 15:15:09

To: L.
From: E.

Hope your weekend is going well! I am going to show a house in Tacoma. I am a real estate agent for PruNW. I am hopen that will be my full timw job by the end of the year.

So here is my address ejw@.net I would like to share more pictures if your intrested, gotta go!

kisses

e.

Subject: Yo yo yo

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 23:30:09

To: E.
From: L.

Hey, E.,

I hope it wasn't Lake Washington lake water you were swallowing... Dang, that stuff'll kill ya! :-o

How was the Storm game? I wasn't too far away from where you were. I was on the South end of Lake Union at the Susan Tedeschi concert. It was awesome! I took my dad for his birthday. :-)

Kent, huh? I'm resisting so far. Holding back jokes is... not... easy... resistance... is... futile... you... will... be... assimilated...

And that Star Trek moment was brought to you by the makers of "Sleep Deprivation" the new and improved version of "Extraordinary Exhaustion..."

;-)

Your turn to think on me

muito beijos

L.

Subject: hey L.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 15:15:07

To: L.
From: E.

I live in the kent area. Yeah I know ... everybody hes a joke about Kent.

The water was great yesterday! I drank way to much lake water, though! Did a little wakeboarding, played on this big ass tube thing. It was fun.

You got a little in-field practice did ya? I work in an office, and play on their softball team. I like to play any sport really.

I am going to the Storm basketball game tonight, it should be fun.

think about me ...

e.

Subject: How was the water?

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 22:15:07

To: E.
From: L.

Hey, E.,

Did you have fun today? Sounds like a blast. Believe it or not, I have yet to try wakeboarding. Doh! I know! Just don't know any people with a boat.

I had a bunch of fun tonight. I got out on the field with the guys from my baseball league (I'm usually just the scorekeeper) and took batting and infield practice along with drills. It was a blast. It was good practice for me for this weekend -- I have an all day softball tournament on Saturday. I prefer baseball though -- easier to throw than the cantaloupes in softball!

So, Mr. Superman with a fondness for redheads... ;-) Where are you located? I'm in the Seattle area...

Ciao for now...
L.

Subject: So I'mmmmm Superman?

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 13:42:07

To: L.
From: E.

I guess your saying guys like me are your weekness, that's cute! I like redheads and the fact that you say you don't ware makeup. Makeup is cool and all ... I like the women that are hot even with out that stuff. And then when she puts on her makup ... and she is even HOTTER ... yeah, I like that! I'm going wakeboarding this afternoon, gotta go!

kisses

e.

Subject: You had me at kinda dorky

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 22:27:08

To: E.
From: L.

But then you had to go ahead and throw blue eyes into the mix.

Dorky, blue eyed, sports-loving guys who know how to cook and iron... Kryptonite, baby!

Where do I sign up?

L.

Subject: Hi

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 20:36:04

To: L.
From: E.

OK .. I like to swim in the summer water stuff is great fun for me. I like to be out side! I eat almost everything, or is anything? I can and like to cook. I have a construction job and I have an office job. I watch sports on the tv. I iron my own cloths. I guess ..I can clean up pretty well too! I like to laugh. And knida a dork at times, I can even see it .. Got blue eyes.

I got more ...

bye

Subject: Hi, E.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 00:18:06

To: E.
From: L.

Thanks for writing, and I think what you suggest sounds like a great
idea. I'll take the initiative and get the self-disclosure train
a-rollin'.

I am 5'8", red headed, green eyed, Sicilian and Irish. I enjoy working
out, eating out and hanging out. But that BARELY scratches the
surface.

Your turn!

L.

P.S. That is a great photo! You look like a hoot to hang out with!

Subject: Hi

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 21:15:13

To: L.
From: E.


I saw your profile and think your cute and very intresting. I think that if we take the time to get to know each other we could have lots of fun!
Let me know what you think! Hope to hear from you soon.

bye
e